Let's talk about Mom Guilt...because I've had a whole lot of it lately.
I'll be honest, I've been struggling to devote much time my business, which has given me a lot of personal guilt. Like having the devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. Except my scenario is different. I have my kids on one shoulder and my business on the other. It's constantly on my mind.
Right now, everyone's situation is different during this pandemic. I am one of the lucky few. My husband still has his job and is able to work from home. We are healthy, safe and happy to do our part in flattening the curve. For me, Pants for Peanuts is part-time. Both of my kids are in grade-school. I'm used to working at home while they're away being educated by someone much more patient and qualified than I. My kids' spring break started Friday, March 13th.
Oh the irony of that date — Friday the 13th.
Little did I know my kids would not be returning to school until Fall of 2020. [hopefully]
I feel like I've been in a state of limbo since that date...like I don't know where to focus my attention, so I just don't. Of course I can and always will prioritize my children. Their needs and education are important to me.
But in the back of my mind I always have that guilt. How can I neglect my business? I've invested so much time and money to get this far. I can't give up on it. It's my baby. My other baby.
This afternoon my kids were contently playing with each other. I felt strangely motivated. I seized the opportunity to slip into my office and get some uninterrupted work done.
Of course — somehow — my children sensed my absence and continually kept interrupting. I swear they have a sixth sense for that.
But it made me realize something.
YES, my business is important to me. It is my other baby. And it's okay to spend time on it. I realized it was mom guilt that was keeping me torn. So today I did something. I wrote a number on my bathroom mirror. The total amount of money I have invested in this business. A number I will not disclose here, [wink, wink]...but a daily reminder to myself to keep going.
To all the momtrepreneurs out there and just anyone trying to figure out how to get through this, keep your chins up. We're all trying to figure this out as we go. Give yourself a little grace, because this is a challenging, uncertain time for all of us.
Hope you're all staying safe and healthy.
Lots of love,
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